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Living With Autism and ADHD

I have autism and ADHD. I’m 40 years old and I received my diagnosis for both conditions when I was 39 years old. I won’t pretend to be a guru about either condition. I’m doing my best to furiously sprint up an insanely steep learning curve to understand both conditions. Both neurodiverse brain types have […]

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I Struggle With Adult Life

Quick note: This was written and drafted on July 30th, 2020. It’s taken me this long to let go and just share this piece. Here it is: I’m lying in bed right now and I’m unable to sleep. In the morning I’ll wake up and it’ll be the last complete day I spend with my […]

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Repressing Grief

I’m finally waking up. This past week has been full of tears. I’ve received knock backs. This isn’t new. I’ve heard “no” far more often than I’ve heard “yes”. Despite this, I’ve been unusually teary. I’ve become accustomed to shutting down my emotions this past year. My close friend and favourite artist Ty passed away […]

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Journalling Personal

Building a New Life

I’m currently re-reading “The Illusion of Money” by Kyle Cease.  I highly recommend it to anyone who is trying to build a creative career in the 21st century. It’s full of wisdom and insight. While re-reading it earlier this evening I came across a passage where he says: “An architect can’t build a brand-new hotel […]

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oh baby..revisited

I love surprises! Don’t you? I especially love it when those surprises spring from the same well. “oh baby” by LCD Soundsystem. It’s a sublime song. I spoke about the joy of hearing it for the first time in my last post. Another thing that gives me joy is storytelling. Particularly visual storytelling. Films, long […]

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oh baby

I love surprises! Don’t you? With my head hunched down at my laptop in a trendy office I hummed “oh baby….” The sounds of hypnotic synths travelled through the room. “What song is this?” I asked my colleague. “It’s ‘oh baby’ by LCD Soundsystem” she replied. For decades I’ve struggled with dissociation*. I’ve found it […]

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Jump Starting a Car – Take #2

So, I wrote my last blog post “Jump Starting a Car” hoping it’d I could bring some momentum back to this blog. I published it a few days back and shared it several days afterwards. But I wrote it back in November. I didn’t make good on the intentions I set in that post and […]

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Jump Starting a Car

So, I’ve not kept promises this year. I’ve made promises to myself and to anyone who is kind enough to check for my work. My last blog post (that wasn’t a poem), It’s Ok to Not Be Ok I broke through a creative block to talk about the difficulties I’ve faced this year. I said […]

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Journalling Personal

It’s Ok to Not Be OK…

I’ve been grappling with what to write lately. Part of me has wanted to write a review of the year so far. Part of me wants to tackle my mental health challenges and where I’m at currently with it. Or maybe I write about both? I’m just going to write until I’ve emptied myself, then I’ll […]

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Zaynub

So, I’m currently summoning up the energy to go through heaps of notes and drafts and ideas for drafts for the blog. There’s a lot I want to say, communicate and share. But this year’s events have thrown me massively off balance. While I do that, to keep the flame burning, I’ve been performing and […]