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I Struggle With Adult Life

Quick note: This was written and drafted on July 30th, 2020. It’s taken me this long to let go and just share this piece. Here it is: I’m lying in bed right now and I’m unable to sleep. In the morning I’ll wake up and it’ll be the last complete day I spend with my […]

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Repressing Grief

I’m finally waking up. This past week has been full of tears. I’ve received knock backs. This isn’t new. I’ve heard “no” far more often than I’ve heard “yes”. Despite this, I’ve been unusually teary. I’ve become accustomed to shutting down my emotions this past year. My close friend and favourite artist Ty passed away […]

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Journalling Personal

Building a New Life

I’m currently re-reading “The Illusion of Money” by Kyle Cease.  I highly recommend it to anyone who is trying to build a creative career in the 21st century. It’s full of wisdom and insight. While re-reading it earlier this evening I came across a passage where he says: “An architect can’t build a brand-new hotel […]

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Journalling Personal

It’s Ok to Not Be OK…

I’ve been grappling with what to write lately. Part of me has wanted to write a review of the year so far. Part of me wants to tackle my mental health challenges and where I’m at currently with it. Or maybe I write about both? I’m just going to write until I’ve emptied myself, then I’ll […]

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Personal Poetry

Zaynub

So, I’m currently summoning up the energy to go through heaps of notes and drafts and ideas for drafts for the blog. There’s a lot I want to say, communicate and share. But this year’s events have thrown me massively off balance. While I do that, to keep the flame burning, I’ve been performing and […]

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Surrender to Love

I’ve grappled with my relationship with my daughter.  I love her unconditionally.  However, the first 7 years of my relationship with her are a blur.  Mental illness and an unhappy marriage with her mother made it impossible for me to be as mentally present as I wanted to be.  Coupled with my own self-esteem issues […]

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Love Is An Act of Sacrifice

“Love is an act of sacrifice” This is from my favourite poem I’ve written over the past 3 years. It was inspired by the closing lecture given by Robert McKee when I attended his Story seminar in May 2019. This line is poetic. Beautiful.  But now I have to put it into practice. I’m sitting […]