Repressing Grief

I’m finally waking up. This past week has been full of tears. I’ve received knock backs. This isn’t new. I’ve heard “no” far more often than I’ve heard “yes”. Despite this, I’ve been unusually teary. I’ve become accustomed to shutting down my emotions this past year. My close friend and favourite artist Ty passed away …

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So, I’m currently summoning up the energy to go through heaps of notes and drafts and ideas for drafts for the blog. There’s a lot I want to say, communicate and share. But this year’s events have thrown me massively off balance. While I do that, to keep the flame burning, I’ve been performing and …

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Surrender to Love

I’ve grappled with my relationship with my daughter.  I love her unconditionally.  However, the first 7 years of my relationship with her are a blur.  Mental illness and an unhappy marriage with her mother made it impossible for me to be as mentally present as I wanted to be.  Coupled with my own self-esteem issues …

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